Typically, I do not celebrate Halloween. During this “holiday” I usually take my younger siblings Trick-O-Treating in order to have bucket loads of candy for the YEAR! Okay…you got me maybe enough candy for the month. Last year on Halloween I took my then seven-year-old sister to get some candy. As she put on her costume and yelled out my name, commanding me to hurry up, I exhaled and braced myself for the ghouls and monsters waiting outside of my door. As soon as we walked towards the door I gave my little sister 3 little rules.
These rules were:
Do not leave my side
You must HOLD my hand
Repeat 1 and 2
The first 15 minutes were great. We saw your typical princess, fairy, ninja turtle, and Mario/ Luigi costumes. During those minutes you could see her facial expression illuminating happiness, joy, excitement because she was getting so much candy. Let’s face it, I was a little excited too because she had a bunch of candy for the both of us :). Suddenly, I felt my sister tug my hand and stop. At this moment I looked down and saw my sister hysterically crying. I said “Andryana what’s wrong” while she sobbed. As I kept prompting her to speak I finally noticed that she was too frightened to speak. Finally, a light bulb went off and I decided to bend down to her eye level in order to see what she saw. [Sometimes we must shift our stance to see what is right in front of us]. I immediately noticed a man in a clown costume walking towards us. I said to her “nani (her nickname) are you afraid of the clown”. She nodded her head yes! I then said “would you like to walk back home”. She said “No”. After deliberating I then thought I do not want my sister to live with this fear for the rest of her life, so today she is going to face her fear. Although I knew this was risky I knew it had to be done. While looking in the eyes I said “nani do you trust me”. With one eye opened and the other shut tight she said “uh-huh”. I said I am going to show you that there is nothing to fear, hold my hand. As I walked up to the gentleman I said to him “Hey, my sister seems to be afraid of your clown mask, I know you do not know me, but would you mind taking your mask off so she can see that it’s just a mask” He said “sure” He took of his mask and for a few she resisted to look. After a moment I said “Andryana open your eyes”. She finally opened her eyes and realized that under the mask was a regular guy. It finally dawned on her that she had nothing to be afraid of. For the rest of the day, every time she saw a clown she would cling tight to me. I quickly reminded her that it was just a mask. We would then count and breath to 5 and she would be okay. Conquering your fear is never easy but when you have someone guiding you every step of the way it makes things better.
You see when I am afraid I look towards Jesus for support because I know that I cannot do it alone. I know that Jesus holds my hands through every trial and tribulation. Without him, I am just like my beloved sister, Andryana, holding my eyes shut and hoping that the evil goes away. When I am afraid I remember Deuteronomy 31:6 which states “Be STRONG and COURAGEOUS. Do NOT be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; HE will never leave you nor forsake you”. Every time I read this I remember that the LORD is by my side protecting me from any evil that may arise. So on this spooky day I ask you what are you afraid of?