Jesus Take The WHEEL
I am a love connoisseur. I truly love, love. I will sit down and watch romantic movies and even read romantic books in hopes that my relationships would be just like the love stories I see. As a child I would watch many Disney movies and say to myself “wow they lived happily ever after. I cannot wait to grow up and live happily ever after too”. In reality, relationships are nothing like the love stories we see in movies, sheesh it’s not even close to a romantic comedy. For me it has been more like a drama with a pinch of horror story. My last relationship I was with a man for five years. This relationship had its ups and downs but I truly thought this man was the one. I would constantly say to my friends that him and I will get married and have an average life. You see before Christ, I truly thought that’s all I deserved.
Then one day all of my dreams became reality. The man who I wanted to be with forever finally asked me to spend the rest of my life with him. On that very day I asked God to take place in my relationship. You see, I only want to be married once. The person I marry will be stuck with me for the rest of our natural born lives, and I knew that without God in the center of our relationship we would not be able to reap the blessings of the lord. Within that same week the lord started to show me the flaws in my relationship. Flaws in which I already knew existed but made myself blind too. What I thought was a sure deal became a moment of uncertainty. I was unclear of what the lord was trying to say to me because let’s face it I truly never spoke to the lord let alone heard the lord speak, but one day it became clear to me. The man who I wanted to marry was not the man for me!
When you allow the lord take control of your life, he starts to show you immediately what needs to be done. It is up to you to listen to what the lord is telling you. Often times I pray for discernment because I would like to be able to differentiate between my mind and my spirit. My mind was telling me at the time“Emi you are turning 26 and want to have children by 30. This is the best you can do”. My spirit continued to tell me “Emi you deserve more. You deserve someone who would love you abundantly and sees you like how the lord sees you”. The decision to leave my ex was an easy one but what happened next was priceless, I started to fall deeply in love with the lord and started to rekindle a relationship with ME.